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Saturday, January 12, 2008

Saddest.

Probably the saddest confession I will ever make on this blog: way back in my teenage years, when I was with Kevin, I used to sleep on the floor next to his bed. He told me he didn't like to share, so I lay down on the wood floor, no blanket even, just so I could be next to him all night. In the morning he'd let me back in the bed for a quick fuck.

Now that I've all growed up and got me some self-respect, I can't even share covers fairly.
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7 comments:

  1. AnonymousJanuary 12, 2008 at 5:05 PM

    That is sad, he must have really been an asshole.

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  2. Cliff PervocracyJanuary 12, 2008 at 5:13 PM

    Anon - you're not wrong, but honestly, I was weird too. I could've slept on the couch (or said "fuck you" and gone home to sleep in my own damn bed...), I chose to do this because I thought it was an act of devotion.

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  3. AnonymousJanuary 12, 2008 at 7:13 PM

    I can understand your feelings, but he must have been pretty heartless to treat you like that regardless. A lot of people (especially young people) act obsessively or irrationally in love. People who see that and take advantage of it are deplorable. (And it was probably hard to miss or misinterpret you sleeping by the bed.)

    Way too often it's so much harder to just say "fuck you" than it should be.

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  4. AnonymousJanuary 12, 2008 at 7:25 PM

    Way too often it's so much harder to just say "fuck you" than it should be
    ...especially when you're worried that no one lese will fuck you. Sigh.

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  5. Cliff PervocracyJanuary 12, 2008 at 8:14 PM

    Anon - Yep. I was definitely in the "I'll walk over broken glass for you!" kind of stupid-little-girl love, and he was pretty willing to provide the broken glass.

    Bruno - 'Strue. I was under the impression that I was so unfuckable that any man willing to fuck me was a treasure to be hung on to at all costs. Snobby high school or something, I dunno, but I had a lot of early experiences with people directly telling me that no man would willingly stick it in a warthog like me. So when I found one, and he was even reasonably good-looking to boot... ZOMG U R MY WHITE KNIGHT SIR.

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  6. AnonymousJanuary 13, 2008 at 2:27 PM

    I've done the same thing.

    It sucks.

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  7. Cliff PervocracyJanuary 13, 2008 at 2:47 PM

    Aebhel - Yeek! Apparently our nation has a goddamn epidemic of boys with small beds and no generosity, and the women who blindly puppydog them.

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