Benny says "I'm really not attracted to fat women... I mean, uh, fat women who tie me up, that's, uh, different... but it's because I'm fat and I hate myse..." and literally stops in mid-word.
And because I am a sap and a sucker and a damn pushover, I put my hands on his belly and tell him (and it's not a lie) that I like it and it makes him look big and strong. He doesn't really believe me and I don't blame him. It's a scene I've been through more than once myself. (Well, usually without managing to insult my partner in the process, but it's Benny.)
No matter what I say, I suspect he's thinking what I always think: A lover who tells me I'm not fat is a liar, a lover who tells me he doesn't care is lowering his standards, and a lover who tells me he likes it is a damn pervert.
It's strange and touching to hear Benny be that honest. It also hurts every which way.
Mate, really. What's so pervy about liking to fuck someone fat? Because society says that fat people aren't hot at the moment? Bullshit. Personally anecdotally, my BBF is a fat girl (actually, she's absolutely beautiful - looks a bit like Nigella Lawson, but bigger) and her husband well enjoys fucking her ... and they are two of the most conservative, least pervy, people I know.
ReplyDeleteYou may not like your body at times, and he might not always be a fan of his ... but its not perverted to enjoy them.