Welp, I re-registered for OkCupid, because what's the worst that could happen. (I'm not saying the profile name here, because these things need to be kept separate.)
The frustrating thing right now is that I've written some adorably witty things in the profile but I haven't added pictures yet--I need to go take them, because I don't have any that are both honest and attractive. All the photos I have on my hard drive are either squinty ill-lit party pics, naked, or two years old.
So right now I'm getting charming messages from men who haven't seen my face, which makes me feel really awkward, because I worry these guys might not be interested if they did. Or more to the point, they won't be interested when they do. I feel like somehow, when you picture "a girl," sans photo, you're going to picture someone who looks nothing like me, and when you do see me it's going to be a let-down.
I'm not afraid to show my face, but showing my face to people who've had time to preconceive of me feels daunting.
Ah well, the point of a dating site is to eventually see each other in real life, and there's no controlling your angles there. And yet some guys seem to like me anyway, without being deceived even a little bit! Will wonders never cease.